Coral Reefs

Living in Bermuda i've been able to grow up with the beauty of the oceans and the island aswell. I've been to many places in the world and i still think that bermuda is the prettiest of them all. Somthing that comes along with the beauty of the island is the coral reefs. They are the most beautiful things and they surround the entire island. Its something that keeps the big and dangerous animals like sharks far from the island. Snorkeling in them and just being surrounded by them makes me a very lucky person. I sometimes forget how lucky of a person i am with being from Bermuda and how many beautiful things surround me just from the island. One of the main things being the coral reefs and the beautiful fishes and little animals that live there to. I love Bermuda and i love everything and the beauty that comes along with it.

Everything happens for a Reason

Life wouldnt be life without friends or family. Almost everyone you talk to will say this, but everybody has different experiences and everyone has different people who mean the world to them. I wouldnt change anything in my life if i was given the option. I live with no regrets and learn from the mistakes that i have made. No one is perfect and No one goes throughout their life without heartache or making mistakes or doing things that they wish that they never did. But learning how to deal those things is the part you have to learn to deal with and learn how to cope with a quote that i live by is that "Everything Happens for a reason". I truely beleive that everything happens for a reason and to have no regrets about anything because everything will work itself out in the end. When you are put into a hard situation and your stuck in the middle of something, its hard to look at things like this, but its better if you do and it will be easier to deal with the hardships after the fact if you do look at life this way.

The human Butterfly

One of the most random things that i have come to think of is how similar the life cycle of a butterfly is to the emotional progression of a human.

Butterflies start off as catterpillars, turn into cacoons and then become beautiful butterflies. Just as humans with their emotional progression with not just relationships, but as well as friendships and becoming your own person. Everything starts off small just as caterpillars and them crawling. they are getting to know the earth and it surroundings just as we do when we get to know someone or even ourselves. The caterpillar then forms a cacoon which would be the state of us as humans breaking out of our home and our comfort zones, such as us as humans going off to college or moving out of their homes and breaking out of the cacoon into our own beautiful people with friendships and relationships and the comfort of knowng who we are.

"I carry your heart with me" ee cummings

I carry your heart with me

(i carry it in my heart)

I am never without it

(anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing my darling)

I fear

no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)

i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it'ts you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher then the sould can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder thats keeping the stars apart.

I carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Thanksgiving Break

....Was defintally one of the best weeks of my life. I had been looking forward to thanksgiving break for a very long time before and it was defintally everything i expected it to be. it was one of the best weeks of my life. Just becaue i got to spend it with so many people who I care about and who I can completely be myself around. Which is refreshing after being around people at Lynn who you have to completely start over with. On thanksigiving, my brother and I made thanksgiving dinner and then had friends over for dinner, which was one of the best days of my break. I went ice skating with my friends, which was halarious since none of us can skate. and all in all it was just a much needed and enjoyable break. Almost makes me not want to be here yet ! i defintally wasnt ready for the break to be over.

A break...

Thanksgiving break is defintally needed. I'm not going home, to bermuda, for thanksgiving break but i'm going somewhere where i consider to be my second home, which is Boston. I went to school there for three years and some of my closest friends go to college there now as well as my brother lives there and a break from here is well needed. Just to get away and to be around some people that who have made me who i am today will be very refreshing. I wish i was going home, but i would be bored if i went home and Boston is just as enjoyable for me. I love the City and am thinking of transferring for school there next year. I have a feeling that this week is going to go by slow and i wish it wouldnt !

Self Realization

Today i found a friend

who knew everything i felt.

She knew my every weakness.

and the problems i've been dealt.

She understood my wonders

and listened to my dreams

She listened to how i felt about life and love,

and knew what it all means.

Not once did she interrupt me,

or tell me i was wrong.

She understood what i was going through,

and promised shed stay long.

I reached out this friend

to show her that i care

to pull her close and let her know

how much i need her there.

I went to hold her hand

to pull her a bit nearer.

and realized that this perfect friend i found,

was nothing but my mirror.

Sometimes people depend on other people in their lives to much and dont fend for themselves

or become so un independent that they cant do or feel anything for themselves. Including myself in this and i like this poem because it helps me remember that when it comes down to it it i need to be strong enough and to get to know myself and be able to depend on myself more then other people.

There's More i deserve

Day in and day out we live angry with eachother,

as i try to bring back the love we had for one another,

its so hard for me, i just cant let you go

because if i did you would never know

exactly how much i loved you and exactly how much you meant.

i valued our relationship,every moment together spent

i thought about you daily my mind running miles

your love always seemed to be the reason for all my smiles.

i hate to say, but that time has come

i cant stand the thought of what we've become

im sick of the nights, ive stayed up just thinking

watching the clock, as time just kept ticking

it's hard always knowing, that you will still be

that wonderful person you once were for me

but as time goes on i know it will pass

i wish that forever, somehow we'd last

but im stronger then that, you wont make me melt

and neither will you know the pain that i felt

I still think about you and what could have been

what we had, nobody had seen

for you remains something deep in my heart

ill love you forever but its my que to part

I'm Now Stronger and Wiser and not so Reserved

I've finally realized

Theres more i deserve.

Finding yourself.

From the moment that we obtain the slightest bit of knowledge we feel that we are all of a sudden think ourselves capable of things that require far greater wisdom and expereience. As a senior in high school I remember looking at freshman and even people in my own year, who thought that they knew everything and would act as though they would. Im not saying that i am wise or that i know everything, and that i have the ability to judge people on what they do or do not know, but looking at those type of people make me act the ezact oppitsite, i know that i have alot to learn as i am only 17 years old. I enjoy learning new things and i always take the time to listen when someone trys to tell me something and not be quick to judge. i have come along way and i still have more to go but that only goes to show the saying "the older the wiser" plays true throughout everyones lifes".

Lost.

Lately I have just been feeling lost. Like I don't have myself all put together, so I try to do things that make me feel happier. I dont know if its because its a new school with an overwhelming amount of people and people are still looking for their friend groups including myself, although i have found a set group of friends and I'm greatful for them. But something just doesnt feel right. It could be just because i am missing home and feel as though i need a refresher of who I am. I feel like a person can get so caught up with their surroundings and the people they are around that they dont always take the time to just think. Which is my problem, i just havent had time to think. Not even to think about anything particular but just to get some things together and kind of refresh myself of who i am and my morals. Everybody is in the same position when they first start college and im sure some people are feeling the same way as me right now. I am going to take some time to just think though, about any and everything just to give myself a refresher of who i am and to think about the people i care about but dont get to see or hear from everyday.

Me !

My Name is Amanda Elizabeth Anne Spencer and I was born in Bermuda and have lived there my entire life. It is my most favorite place in the entire world. I have one brother, Chris, who is 22 and he is my best friend. It wasn’t always like that; we have defiantly had our moments. My mothers name is Lynn and my father is Edward. Before University I went to a boarding school, in a town in the middle of nowhere in cold Massachusetts called Cushing Academy, it wasn’t as bad as I made it sound. I actually loved it. My family and friends are my life. Without them I would be lost and I definitely wouldn’t be the person I am today. My best friends name is Rebecca lee Conklin and her and I have been friends since we were about three or four years old, she is more then a best friend to me she is like family. I am the type of person who just kind of goes with the flow and takes things day by day. I don’t really like to stress over things and I always like to try and smile, I don’t think I can stay sad for to long. Right now I don’t really know what my major is, but I think I’m leaning towards communications or hospitality, but by not even knowing what my major is, I have absolutely no idea what I want to do after I graduate from college or what I want to be, hopefully it will come to me soon. I do know that I want to travel a lot. I love experiencing new things and seeing new places. Different cultures and religions interest me, and I love meeting new people although at times I can be very shy when I first meet someone. A lot of what has made who I am , I believe, is from the experiences I have been through and my lifestyle. I like who I am although there are things about myself that I wish I could change… but who doesn’t wish they could change something’s about themselves ?